hand
wrist
arm
shoulder
still problematic
creating static
in my brain
if not a bassist,
what then?
few options come to mind
it's all i've ever done
ever wanted to do
is this how
this forty-two year journey
is to end?
in pain and
darkness
and not really giving a fuck about
anything
anymore
seeking some sort of light
but i can't pull the ink-black membrane
from my eyes
head spins
in a constant state of vertigo
seeking solace at the bottom
of a pint glass
much too much
and it's never there
just a momentary dulling
of this new reality...
3 comments:
It isn't over and it isn't ending Kev... think about this: this has been one of the most brutal schedules in a long, long time (brutal - busy), that coupled with the injury sustained in the squabble.
Yes, you need to keep your wrist immobile, but by the same token, you need to keep your range of motion. Moderation here: a two hour practice is too long at one time, especially if you've had your brace on for DAYS. Also - warm-up exercises aren't just for runners; you know this - warm the wrist up before you play and let it "cool down" afterwards. It isn't used to being immobile.
...not sure quitting the bike altogether is a good idea baby. You need the endorphins... the vitamin Sun... the sweating of toxins... the clean air and changing landscape.
Don't need me to tell you what's at the bottom of that pint glass either - how many times have you thrown the life preserver in after me? Moderation.
This resp. infection has turned into pneumonia so I'm laying low... but there is always the phone.
I love you and this too shall pass. I promise you. I PROMISE YOU.
I can't stand at the easel any more. I have to sit and watch my arm positioning, and I'm not yet 50, but years of standing, squeezing a palette in my left hand and having my arms in a raised position tensed from drawing and painting is causing my shoulders some real trouble. I don't know what I'd do without my artwork, but right now it's anything I can that doesn't strain those muscles and still lets me draw or paint. I can't do it everyday, though. And REST-rest those muscles that do the same things every day. My piano fingers need the same treatment.
it's sort of ironic that you should mention the visual arts, because getting back into drawing, painting and printmaking would be my refuge if playing bass is no longer a physical possibility...it's actually what i went to school for all those years ago...of course, i've also got a wild urge to go to culinary school and open a pastry shoppe...
...hoping the best for your shoulders and your piano fingers, Joannie...
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